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[09 Dec 2009|06:30pm] |
Yes! YesyesyesyesYES!!!
I'm not one of those people who would be particularly happy to be single. I'm very happily married and I wouldn't change than for anything. However, I have seen people who just seem to think they HAVE to have a "significant other" in their life, even though they don't. It isn't that they actually need the companionship, either, because they have friends for that. It's because they think that they HAVE to have a boyfriend or girlfriend or husband or wife. Fact is, you don't. And I know several people who have chosen to remain single who seem to be perfectly happy in their romantic solitude. And, honestly, I believe this pressure is put on people at a very early age. I remember how some of the girls in high school would lament over not being able to find a boyfriend. Hell, just watch Sailor Moon, and you'll see the same thing! For some stupid reason, it's hammered into the minds of young women that they're not normal if they don't have a boyfriend to hang all over. It's sad.
Worse yet... I've seen young women who have literally thrown their lives away because of this. That they couldn't POSSIBLY be single, so they latched onto the first thing that smiled at them and got married to it and have some crazy need to squirt out a baby. Which leads me to the next part of the question.
Yes again. I myself feel this pressure practically every day! Even worse is when it's Mother's Day. I get wished a "happy Mother's Day" and am asked what I'm going to get for it just because I'm over 18 years old, it seems. And they don't ever stop to think that maybe I don't have kids because I either 1) don't want children, or 2) can't have children. In my case, it's actually both.
Heck, take that former coworker, for example! How she saw my wedding band and then asked if I was married, and for how long. When I answered that I am, and for seven years, she seemed flabbergasted that I don't have children.
No, just because I'm married does not mean I have to go squirt out crotchlings. The world is over crowded enough without me bringing somebody else into it. I think too many people bring too many more people to this world as it is. That, in my opinion, is one of the bigger parts of why the world is so messed up. Sadly, this woman was not the only one to seem so... offended that I don't have children at my age. We're not in the dark ages here! We don't need kids to help us tend the farm anymore.
Whether I have children or I don't have children is MY BUSINESS and no one else's. If I choose not to have them, or if I can't have them, that is MY BUSINESS. Yet, I DO get treated differently because I'm childless.
I don't particularly find that this is worse around the holidays in my case. I can't speak for anyone else. The only holiday I find this to be any problem in is the one I already mentioned.
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[09 Dec 2009|05:17am] |
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So, we were at mass yesterday morning, and there was this little kid sitting behind us, chattering away and kicking the pews and just generally "cutting up" all during mass. (I felt so bad for the mom, who looked younger than me and seemed to have another kid on the way. I mean, it was freezing outside, what was she supposed to do? Bundle the kid up and drag him outside?? Freeze to death??)
But, anyway, the kid kept saying "mommy, mommy", and that struck me for some reason. Made me wonder if Jesus ever did that as a kid, y'know? We seem to have this general picture of Jesus, walking down the street with a giant halo on His head or something. But He was a kid at one point. I wonder if Mary spent a lot of trying to "shush" Him during temple services, or whatever? (Interesting to contemplate.)
Seemed appropriate, anyway. Yesterday was the Feast of the Immaculate Conception. No, that's not referring to Jesus' conception. (Do the math.) It means Mary's conception (without original sin). And, if you think about it, the purpose of all that was for her motherhood.......so perhaps the kid saying "mommy, mommy" was theologically interesting?
(But I wouldn't have minded if he'd been a little quieter about it, lol.)
Ah well, this is a busy week. I wrote some of my Christmas cards yesterday. And today, we do the grocery shopping. I've been trying to get us in the habit of going every other week, which means that we go less often than before, but we buy more stuff. (That's the way I like to shop!!)
And tomorrow, I go up and see my primary doctor. You see, my doctors in Omaha want some more testing done. (Biopsies and other scary things.) So, I'll go talk to my local doctor and figure out where to do this. And how to do this. They want an ultrasound done on a specific cycle day, which only gives me 4 days advance warning to schedule. How am I going to find a lab to do that?? And, this could take a while. I mean, what if it falls on a Sunday, or Christmas, or something? Then I gotta wait till the next cycle. *sigh*
If you ask me, God should have designed us with little built-in screens which could display all of our health information. Imagine it!! No more testing ever! You want to know your hormone levels, you just check the screen. *giggle*
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| Computer Help!! |
[08 Dec 2009|01:51pm] |
Okay so Mom's thinking about getting a new family pc. We are considering giving it high enough specs that I could run 3d programs like 3ds Max and Zbrush since my computers aren't capable of doing so or being upgraded ;(
I've looked around at the big boy brands and I haven't found anything decent at a low enough price. A guy at a store suggested I check out compusa.
So I found this: CybertronPC X-Sniper SINN2120 It's got an awesome graphics card because it's a gamer pc and high enough memory and hd space to make mom happy.
Has any one got any experience with CompUSA or the Cybertron PC brand? Here's the link to the comp in question.
Any suggestions or comments would be greatly appreciated. Thanks!
http://www.compusa.com/applications/SearchTools/item-details.asp?EdpNo=4678031&Sku=C122-05162
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| ATTN Ulario |
[08 Dec 2009|03:05pm] |
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First of all, I apologize for not being able to turn in my art on time! I did start this way before the deadline, but then life got a lil hectic, and I wasn't able to finish the picture until today... I hope you can understand.
So here is your pretty and lovely Rhointai:
November Art Exchange by ~aniris on deviantART
I really hope you like her, and again sorry for being late!
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| Thanks! |
[07 Dec 2009|03:33pm] |
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Just wanted to say a quick thanks for the bday wishes ^.^ Getting so so close to 30. UGHHH.. I want to buy going backwards now, kthxbye.
Least I'm not as old as Duncan. OHHHHHH!!
PIE!
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| Time to take it easy. |
[07 Dec 2009|02:57pm] |
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As I mentioned in my last journal, my back went out. I have a trouble spot on the top half of my spine, which I'm guessing is just from years of bending over at odd angles while painting/drawing. When it's out like this, any movement of my head or arms hurts, and triggers out a weird, painful muscle spasm ripples through my ribs from front to back. It's a weird feeling.
I take muscle relaxants, prescription strength, and just take it easy on the couch with a heating pad and usually it gets better over a few days.
However, I didn't take it easy as much as I should have. I had company over, went to an Xmas party, and did Xmas shopping this weekend. I even raided on WoW instead of drugging myself up - though raiding isn't physically challenging, it was just more time I spent not medicated and not relaxing. And so I really haven't gotten better.
Sooooo, it's time to knock it off and do nothing until I'm better. I don't think I can stop drawing though... because... just watching tv will make me crazy.
I do need to go grocery shopping though... D:
WoW talk - I finally won a friggin' trophy this weekend, and now have my t9 gloves (or whatever they are... 25 man ToC with the Anub'arak beetle guy... that thing). I've been rolling for one for so long, and I always roll low. I was starting to think I'd be going to Icecrown Citadel with no t9 (though I'll probably be going in my 25 man Naxx boots, since the boots I want won't drop for me).
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| what a weekend |
[07 Dec 2009|11:40am] |
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Day #47
60 mins / 450 cals / 31.74 BMI / 86.4 kg (190.5 lbs) / bathroom scale = 191 lbs / boxing and dancing / hadn't exercised for three days, but back to it today / wow about the weight!
So it dumped snow on us for over 36 hours. It's done snowing, but the temperature is currently -31°C (-24°F). We are not going out today. I will call the library and ask to renew the books so I don't have to take them back today.
I forgot to mention it earlier, kept forgetting to blog about it. We politely asked (read: begged) the management not to raise our rent to $1,000 and they pleasantly complied without batting an eyelash. It will stay at $945 and we will not look for somewhere else to live at this time.
Last Thursday, the kids and I got to go to a church Christmas function. It had a great meal, and good music. The visiting guest family live in Trinidad. The husband played a steel drum while the wife played piano. Oldest son played clarinet and oldest daughter played violin. It was awesome! I'd never heard Caribbean-style Christmas carols before.
The dinner involved roast beef in a bun, baked potatoes, cooked carrots, salads, jello salads, deserts and stuff. Someone had paid our way to have us go to it. We also got picked up by some church folks as we didn't have use of our van (G took it to work). At the end of the evening, we were given a bunch of leftovers to have. Pure heaven to have some meat and potatoes in the house. We are blessed.
Well, I need to go make lunch. See ya.
EDIT: oh yeah, the other good bit of news. I made it through the whole night without one neck ache! I was able to wake up at 6am this morning. Yay!
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| I Am a Heel- Belated Piece for Boss Hoss! |
[07 Dec 2009|10:14am] |
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I could give a long drawn-out story about my extended absence, but nothing really excuses my heelish behavior of not getting my artwork done way back in May and continuing not to get it done for the following six months and some days.
It started innocently enough, my mother ended up in the hospital in May with a massive blood clot in her leg, I graduated with my BFA, and spent a week in Utah. My mother is since doing well, I have my official diploma, and am enjoying the lack of school commitments, all the more reason for my time lapse to be inexcusable. It really comes down to embarrassment as up to that point I had been quite punctual. I've hidden my face from the community because I couldn't bear to be around without feeling intense guilt at having not completed my part of the exchange.
I did start my drawing, and started it again, and again, and again, before finally getting something done and finally finished just today. I don't know if it entirely makes up for the protracted absence, but the hours spent on it and the rather irritable and malevolent stare has assuaged at least some of the guilt, or at least accurately represented what I figured I deserved.
( Dr. Minerva Brambleberry )
I do hope you enjoy and that it might partially be worth the wait (I tried to make it so). And with that I believe my record is clear and I can hang about here clear of guilt and shame!
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| Holiday List |
[06 Dec 2009|11:07pm] |
I am doing this at the request of a few people. I am taking advantage of the ease of posting it here for maximum anonymous-ness for the folks that asked. I know many of us feel the sting of squeezing blood out of money, so please do not feel obligated in anyway to follow any of this.
That being said, I am lurking around those that have done this. I can't do much in the way of expensive, but I am hoping to add a little happy as I make my rounds. Feel free to leave your comment here if you have done this meme yourself (comments screened).
( 2009 Holiday Wishlist Meme )
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| Twittly dee, twittly dumb |
[05 Dec 2009|07:48pm] |
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So I'm now a twittering twat.
Check out things that you probably have no interest in nor want to know!
http://twitter.com/Teaselbone
(btw, F you Reggie! I made it mostly just to threaten you with!)
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| Contemplation |
[05 Dec 2009|11:46am] |
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I found this quote a while ago, and for some reason it's been relevant in several recent situations. (Life is weird that way, I guess.)
"We should use God's gifts of creation however they help us in achieving the end for which we were created, and we ought to rid ourselves of whatever gets in the way of our purpose. In order to do this we must make ourselves indifferent to all creation, to the extent that we do not desire health more than sickness, riches more than poverty, honor more than dishonor, a long life more than a short life, or anything at all in and of itself. We should desire and choose only what helps us attain the end for which we were created. "
-St. Ignatius
In other news........I don't have much to report, lol. Only 1 more grammar class before my final exam. I can't believe the semester is over already. And what am I taking next semester?? "Modern British Novel" (Yes, I know, you're all jumping up and down with excitement, right??)
I was able to snag a nice, compact, little flat-screen TV, with built-in DVD player, on Black Friday. Yay for deep discounts!!! I got it all set up, and it looks great. Now I just need to arrange all my video game systems around it. (I'm suffering withdrawal; I haven't used any of them since July!!)
I still have mounds of pony stuff to sell. I've been putting it up on eBay, usually 15 or 20 auctions at a time......but it still seems like an insurmountable pile of stuff!! (I gave in and donated many of the new G3 merchandise items to the holiday toy drive.)
Got the advent wreath out, the creche scene up, and I'm debating when to put up the tree. Yay for the holiday season!!!
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| Quick News |
[05 Dec 2009|01:39pm] |
Hey guys. DeviantART finally has groups underway in beta mode. I applied to create one for ourselves, and it has been accepted! So here here, Check it out!
I think most of us use DA for showing our works, and hopefully with this, we can advertise further. You guys as members of the group can upload works you want to show off that have been completed as part of the exchange. I can also post reminders about sign-ups or important news that will appear as a blog post on your DA message centres. It might be useful to some of you that don't have the chance to check livejournal regularly.
Speaking of important news, can someone please adopt ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) ulariogryphon's character for last month: Here!
Thanks guys :)
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| Art and Health |
[04 Dec 2009|10:33am] |
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I figure I should bring this up as of now since winter is slowly rolling in and I've been noticing a few things..
First and foremost: It seems my fibromyalgia this year is giving me a lot of flak (For those of you who don't know what fibromyalgia is, please visit this link for some info: Mayo Clinic on Fibromyalgia) which in turn is severely hampering my ability to do normal, day to day things, including your artwork. I've taken note in the past that my fibro worsens during the winter and already signs have proven that the cold spells are kicking me hard. However, it happens at anytime at any intensity, it's just shown me in the past to do more damage in colder weather.
Second: My endometriosis (Link to info) and dysmenorrhea (Link to info) are being controlled, but they can still make me useless and worn down, just like the fibro, and at anytime it can strike back. These three problems all run hand in hand, more or less feeding off the other making things worse.
Why am I mentioning this? You, my friends and commissioners, are obviously important to me and I try to do my best to get your work done and done at my best. However there are times when I just cannot work, and I won't. Working physically or mentally. The pain from these health issues I have can be debilitating, sometimes I just get into a fog, I have grown to be frequently forgetful, other times I am so tired I just have no desire to do anything but sleep. Because of this it sometimes takes me longer to accomplish things, and on good days I can plow through all sorts of artwork and get things done around the house. On really bad days I can't function, in the case of fibro I can't use my arms due to the pain.
I have tried to explain this in the past but felt it would be better if I made a wider broadcast. I am all about making my commissioners happy and try my best to get work done, but I would be ever so grateful for patience when I am taking a while longer than expected.
I know many of you are aware of my conditions and you have always been very patient with me, and I can't thank you enough.
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